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Complication: 28th March 2o1o Yesterday after I finished posting,I go read Jadelyn's blog.I was just as speechless as Vivienne when I saw her dedications.Well,so my first part of today's blog will be dedicated to Jadelyn.Whether you see it or not.It makes not much of a difference. To My beloved Jadelyn: You are also a wonderful friend.We are not the ones leaving you,but you are.You are not the only one being imperfect.Nobody's perfect.If you can say you are who you are.You are not going to change for anyone.Then,you are wrong.Very wrong. You have changed so much.Too much.You're changing bit by bit.You say you are gonna try,you may or may not go back to us.You are NOT trying.Maybe you are.But you are changing,for the worst.And,nobody can change you except yourself.So you are being selfish to say your change is not what you expected it to be. You say Vivienne taught you how to be serious,how to stand up for yourself.Well,I know I am Straight-forward.I didnt expect our friendship to turn out to be like this.I cant expect you to not talk about me behind my back. Cause I do that myself sometimes too.If I do it myself,what more can I expect from you?After 3 months of being friends with you,from the very first day of school,I cant believe our friendship are on the rocks.I wont leave you.I will wait for you at that very point where we stopped.I believe Vivienne will too. We will wait for our beloved Jadelyn to return.That humourous;always cheering me up when I'm upset;always asking us to wait for her;cute;chat with me when I'm bored girl.I hope you will return.I choose to believe you will.Dont disappoint me. I know I cant expect you to be perfect in everything,cause I cant do that myself.I just want to thank you here.For teaching me how to stay positive,how to slack sometimes,how to do many nice things.And of cause,for being a great friend for the past 2 months plus.I WILL WAIT FOR YOU,I PROMISE.If I can wait for you to come to school everyday,I can wait for you to return. Thats all for the dedication.My feelings now are mixed.I cant explain it.Haix,I believe I will be able to achieve things I think I cant do.~Is this real,Is this pretend?Extracted from Alice,Avril Lavigne.I believe one day she will understand why.Hmm maybe being to straight-forward might not be such a good thing. I always thought if I say what I dont like about my friends,they can at least try to avoid doing it or being it.But now,after being straight-forward,I realised its not doing good.I can be a bit over caring sometimes,but you all must understand me.I cant stand being too alone.No friends,No life. Now I'm beginning to feel that I dont belong in school.Cause there's not much people who knows me as well as Anthonians do.My past changed my life,its not as if I wanted my parents to be divorced.Its not as if I wanted my father to be....Before.(Vivienne,you know what I meant.)My parents mistakes are not meant for me to bare.I am innocent.Just like my bro. I am always lacking of a direct father love.Its not my fault.I just need friends to help me forget about the past.I'm not as perfect as you guys might think.Never judge a book by its cover.I am a human,not a toy.I have feelings too.My dearest friends,thank you for making my everyday. With all of you,my life is so much colourful.I believe without you guys,I will never make it to today.Okaes,today is a totally boring day.I finished only Maths and History homework,I've not yet printed D&T worksheet.Dont worry Vivienne,I wil print it.Am i that irresponsible as to not print for you when I said I will? Haix,my hole puncher is currently M.I.A.(Missing In Action)Hahaas(: Lend me your word Vivienne.Oh,we have decided to watch How to Train your Dragon on monday.Paiseh arhs Vivienne,cant wait for you.I almost forgot Tuesday got I.P.W. and Vivienne going Yishun Sports Hall!!OMFG!How forgetful am I..? Then on Good Friday,coming Friday,we go watch Clash of the titans.YAYY!3D version(: Hahaas(: I so immatured.But well,its part of Childhood.^_^ I'm starting to think life sucks.And hey,I didnt realise Joshua Jiu Jiu also got blog== His blog all the things I dont understand seh..So chim..Hahaas ;D ROFL! And this coming Thursday is April's fool day and Sports Day!!Must straight away report to Yishun Sports Hall.Leon say later we go there they put 'Happy April Fool's!' Then we all sure whack them one.LMAO~ After that me and Vivienne jio hao,go Causeway take Neo pics.Actually also got jio Angela,but she cant make it.SIANN~ ~If you cut me,I supposed I would bleed the colours of the evening stars.You can go anywhere you wish cause I'll be there,whenever you are.~ Tired seh..Nobody to chat with..Bowen why no online?!?!I want my presents. X9 Hehee.Well,I go see see other people blog luhs.My post si bei long liao.Later people complain again.Hahaas.No offence though.So yeahh,Byee. Tired of all that has happened in Life, xoxo N I N G Y;Japanese Girl(: ^^ - GAMBATEH~ |
That Complicated Girl♥ NING There's nothing wrong with my name. Born on 3rd September 1997;Virgo. Currently Perfectly Twelve. An Anthonian and a CCHYian DEAD.STUPID.AINT PRETTY. STRESSED.CHEATED. BETRAYED.HURT.TROUBLED. CRAZY.GIVEN UP.FAILURE. RANDOM. The PROBLEMATIC Dare Angel. Not a tame cat, but a wild tigeress. RAWR(; Being bad and evil like a devil^^ I'm not a nice and sweet girl. Accept the fact that I'm NAUGHTY not Cocksure about being unsure we undefine,we uninstall,we tear down walls lose like artists who rise and fall win like losers knowing the score seeing the haws yet WANTING IT ALL our finishing line drawn in childish scrawl Living in this world♥
Complication;Simplify Black;White Yes;No Right;Wrong Smile;Frown Love;Hate Me;You Life is Never Fair, Never Perfect. But all is not lost yet. No matter what, Live your life to your fullest. If memories can be erased, I would erase a whole lot of it. If life was a subject, I would have failed miserably. If love was everything, I would have lost everything. If friends were laughter, I wonder how my life would be. If I could slit my wrist and jump down the brigde, I think my life wouldnt be that painful after all. If I can fly like a kite, able to soar above the skies, my troubles would be all over. If dying can solve the problem, it wont harm to die. If trying hard can cause so much to happen, I wont try. If I can end my troubles, my life would be way better. I want to give up sometimes. What kept me going until now? Looks really can be devicing - The smiles in a picture. Words can mean alot - The letters that I pick. Love can be really fragile - My heart is breaking,into many million pieces. Life can be really complicated - All this mess. Life can be really simple - I love you(: You happy,I happy,we all happy. You smile,I smile,we all smile. You sad,I sad,we all sad. You cry,I cry,we all cry. You die,I die,we all die. Most importantly, I got you,you got me. Perfect(: Life aint gonna get any better. Its already at its best(; And its horrible. But hey, look on the brighter side of horrible life [: Heal the Heart(*: Let it out♥ Complications♥ CCHYians(: Jadelyn 'Jie'♥ Vivienne Mei♥ Ying Xuan♥ Fiona♥ Claire♥ Wei Xiang♥ Nichole♥ Melissa Mei♥ Jess♥ Angela Jie♥ Anthonians(: Yu Qin Mei♥ Yoon Shan Mei♥ Claudia Jie♥ Wen Hui Jie♥ Samatha Jie♥ Kai Sin Jie♥ Genice Jie♥ Terence Kor♥ TeriAnne Jie♥ Odessa Mei♥ Javier Lee Kor♥ Bowen Kor♥ Jie Yi Jie♥ Dephne Jie♥ Thiruvenika♥ Friends(: Elain♥ Class/School Blogs(: 1E'1o♥ SJAB♥ My beloved Gans[Total:45]♥
Forever Loving and Remembering them♥ 27th January 1997 - Giggs Kor and Dephne Jie 28th January 1997 - Terence Kor and Merlyn Jie 6th February 1997 - Eugene Kor 21st February 1997 - Claudia Jie 25th February 1997 - Denise Jie 5th March 1997 - Dexuan Kor 6th March 1997 - Jie Yi Jie and Diyana Jie 18th March 1997 - Yuan Sheng Kor 26th March 1997 - Angela Jie 27th March 1997 - Kheng Quan Kor 31st March 1997 - Crystal Jie 1st April 1997 - Genice Jie 3rd April 1997 - Zhen Yi kor 7th April 1997 - Yap Woon Jie 16th April 1997 - Leon Kor 7th May 1996/1998 - Wei Xiang Kor and Yoon Shan Mei 23rd May 1997 - Samantha Jie 31st May 1997 - Hao Yi Kor 1st June 1996 - Jun Jie Kor 19th June 1997 - Bowen Kor 23rd June 1997 - Teri Anne Jie 3oth June 1997 - Kai Sin Jie 7th July 1996 - Ming Hui Jie 29th July 1997 - Wen Hui Jie 5th September 1997 - Nikki Mei 8th September 1997 - Camelia Mei 27th September 1997 - Joreen Mei 12th October 1997 - Chan Qing Mei 2oth October 1997 - Chloe Mei 27th October 1997 - Joshua Di 28th October 1997 - Estella Mei 29th October 1997 - Jadelyn 'Jie' 4th November 1997 - Valerie Mei 21st November 1997 - Evonne Mei 22nd November 1997 - Melissa Mei 23rd November 1997 - Nita Mei 28th November 1997 - Jing Yi Mei 6th December 1997 - Odessa Mei 9th December 1997 - Raeann Mei 23rd December 1997 - Vivienne Mei 28th December 1997 - Yu Qin Mei Memories♥ |
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