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Complication: 23rd April 2o1o Life aint gonna be great.I dont know why but I think I am so useless.I cant do anything great.My mid-year is confirm gonna disappoint mummy.I cant fix things that I've screwed.I just..Feel useless in many ways. School has always been a place for me to escape from the reality.But now,it seems to be the source of everything.My happiness and my sadness.My smile and my frown.My laughter and my tears.My dreams and my nightmare. How can I be my true self when you aint yours?I cant seem to believe that I kept things to myself.I cant believe that there will STILL be this day I will HATE MYSELF to the core.I cant believe things will turn out this way for you and me. I know you have friends here.But I dont.Even if I have,they aint strong relationships.If things were to end here,both of us are going to get hurt.Very hurt. Unless you never realise the truth behind why we are ALWAYS quarrelling,its because we like to piss each other of.Its in our personality.Well,at least its in MINE.And well,no offence,you always think you are right.Then everything and everyone is always wrong. I know I have no rights to actually tell you off.But maybe there should be a time you look upon yourself and well,see whats wrong.If the problem isnt with you,then it will be with me.That can be confirmed. Dont lie to yourself.Its not gonna make me feel good or what,but its just to confirm with yourself you are not wrong.I am not prefect.I know sometimes whatever I say is filled with sharp ends and hurt you in some ways. But,thats me.I learnt to always say what you dont like.Cause if you dont say,the space between the two of us will be greater.You know I hate people who lie.You kow I prefer people to say straight in the face.But,its like you always tell Angela things I dont know. Maybe because you think I not fit to know.But I can confirm and be very sure that I am jealous when ou chat with her.Somethings in life once done,can never be turned back.Seize your chance.Cause there might only be this once. I dont know whether you will be angry when you see all this,but I have this feeling inside that you will be unhappy.Vivienne,you are a great friend,just your temper + your impulsivity + my temper + my impulsivity is getting us no where.. Sometimes I cant help to see flaws on you.But I keep telling myself,you aint prefect.One day you will know why I didnt point out your flaws.Cause they are what that makes you who you are;Vivienne.Sometimes I think we both are selfish. Sometimes selfless.Sometimes..Just need a little more space..Take time.When you think you aint angry or anything,sms me.I will miss you :] Hmm,today Jun Jie ask me why I like Lightning.Alot of undescribable reasons.I'm sorry for my mood right now.I didnt mean to make you worry about me,Bowen Kor. And dont worry for me,I wont cut myself.I will never dare.But will I just have emotional scar lo.Thats all.Nothing much.Can you believe I almost cry while typing.I must be crazy. Jun Jie,why dont let me take the bus.You get off luhs.I need go Rainbow Center liaos.Emergency lehs..Not enough space jiu dont let me go.So bad D; Anyways,thanks for being there to chat with(X Thanks Bowen and Jun Jie. Love you two.Though I bet Jun Jie will say disgusting..HAHAHAHA.He's funneh.Really(: TIRED.DEAD.STUPID.AINT PRETTY.STRESSED.CHEATED.BETRAYED.HURT.It aint gonna be better.Its just going down.Too deep till its like getting a DEATH sentence.. Crying without you knowing.Complaining in my mind.My heart disagreeing with all the complains.My state of mind is in a mess.What is going to become of me?I want to take lots of pills and just die. Living has already lost its meaning.The only strength - Gone~ The only problem - Leaving an emotional scar~ Sentenced to death, xoxo N I N G Y(: ^^ - DEAD and USELESS. |
That Complicated Girl♥ NING There's nothing wrong with my name. Born on 3rd September 1997;Virgo. Currently Perfectly Twelve. An Anthonian and a CCHYian DEAD.STUPID.AINT PRETTY. STRESSED.CHEATED. BETRAYED.HURT.TROUBLED. CRAZY.GIVEN UP.FAILURE. RANDOM. The PROBLEMATIC Dare Angel. Not a tame cat, but a wild tigeress. RAWR(; Being bad and evil like a devil^^ I'm not a nice and sweet girl. Accept the fact that I'm NAUGHTY not Cocksure about being unsure we undefine,we uninstall,we tear down walls lose like artists who rise and fall win like losers knowing the score seeing the haws yet WANTING IT ALL our finishing line drawn in childish scrawl Living in this world♥
Complication;Simplify Black;White Yes;No Right;Wrong Smile;Frown Love;Hate Me;You Life is Never Fair, Never Perfect. But all is not lost yet. No matter what, Live your life to your fullest. If memories can be erased, I would erase a whole lot of it. If life was a subject, I would have failed miserably. If love was everything, I would have lost everything. If friends were laughter, I wonder how my life would be. If I could slit my wrist and jump down the brigde, I think my life wouldnt be that painful after all. If I can fly like a kite, able to soar above the skies, my troubles would be all over. If dying can solve the problem, it wont harm to die. If trying hard can cause so much to happen, I wont try. If I can end my troubles, my life would be way better. I want to give up sometimes. What kept me going until now? Looks really can be devicing - The smiles in a picture. Words can mean alot - The letters that I pick. Love can be really fragile - My heart is breaking,into many million pieces. Life can be really complicated - All this mess. Life can be really simple - I love you(: You happy,I happy,we all happy. You smile,I smile,we all smile. You sad,I sad,we all sad. You cry,I cry,we all cry. You die,I die,we all die. Most importantly, I got you,you got me. Perfect(: Life aint gonna get any better. Its already at its best(; And its horrible. But hey, look on the brighter side of horrible life [: Heal the Heart(*: Let it out♥ Complications♥ CCHYians(: Jadelyn 'Jie'♥ Vivienne Mei♥ Ying Xuan♥ Fiona♥ Claire♥ Wei Xiang♥ Nichole♥ Melissa Mei♥ Jess♥ Angela Jie♥ Anthonians(: Yu Qin Mei♥ Yoon Shan Mei♥ Claudia Jie♥ Wen Hui Jie♥ Samatha Jie♥ Kai Sin Jie♥ Genice Jie♥ Terence Kor♥ TeriAnne Jie♥ Odessa Mei♥ Javier Lee Kor♥ Bowen Kor♥ Jie Yi Jie♥ Dephne Jie♥ Thiruvenika♥ Friends(: Elain♥ Class/School Blogs(: 1E'1o♥ SJAB♥ My beloved Gans[Total:45]♥
Forever Loving and Remembering them♥ 27th January 1997 - Giggs Kor and Dephne Jie 28th January 1997 - Terence Kor and Merlyn Jie 6th February 1997 - Eugene Kor 21st February 1997 - Claudia Jie 25th February 1997 - Denise Jie 5th March 1997 - Dexuan Kor 6th March 1997 - Jie Yi Jie and Diyana Jie 18th March 1997 - Yuan Sheng Kor 26th March 1997 - Angela Jie 27th March 1997 - Kheng Quan Kor 31st March 1997 - Crystal Jie 1st April 1997 - Genice Jie 3rd April 1997 - Zhen Yi kor 7th April 1997 - Yap Woon Jie 16th April 1997 - Leon Kor 7th May 1996/1998 - Wei Xiang Kor and Yoon Shan Mei 23rd May 1997 - Samantha Jie 31st May 1997 - Hao Yi Kor 1st June 1996 - Jun Jie Kor 19th June 1997 - Bowen Kor 23rd June 1997 - Teri Anne Jie 3oth June 1997 - Kai Sin Jie 7th July 1996 - Ming Hui Jie 29th July 1997 - Wen Hui Jie 5th September 1997 - Nikki Mei 8th September 1997 - Camelia Mei 27th September 1997 - Joreen Mei 12th October 1997 - Chan Qing Mei 2oth October 1997 - Chloe Mei 27th October 1997 - Joshua Di 28th October 1997 - Estella Mei 29th October 1997 - Jadelyn 'Jie' 4th November 1997 - Valerie Mei 21st November 1997 - Evonne Mei 22nd November 1997 - Melissa Mei 23rd November 1997 - Nita Mei 28th November 1997 - Jing Yi Mei 6th December 1997 - Odessa Mei 9th December 1997 - Raeann Mei 23rd December 1997 - Vivienne Mei 28th December 1997 - Yu Qin Mei Memories♥ |
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