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Complication: 28th July 2o1o;Wednesday(: Helloh guys^^ Its been a supppppppeeeeeeer looooooooooong time since I've used the com :] Here I firstly wanna thank Jadelyn for her Chicken soup book(*: Secondly,I wanna dedicate my first part of my post to YuQin Mei xD To My beloved YuQin Mei :] Dont be upset nor worry.I will be there for you when you need me(: We will go through this together all right?This is something that I read upon in the Chicken soup book.I wanna share it with you^^ I try to remember... 1. Everybody doesnt have to love me 2. It is okay to make mistakes 3. Other people are okay and I am okay 4. I dont have to control things 5. I am responsible for my day 6. I can handle it when things go wrong 7. It is important to try 8. I am capable 9. I can change 1o. Other people are capable 11. I can be flexible I strongly believe you can try to remember all this(: And I hope I've helped you :] I'm sorry for what I actually said in the past that hurt you ._." But dont worry!It wont happen again.I'm glad to have a great Mei like you^^ And I definately LOVE YOU(: So cheer up and continue to SMILE AND LAUGH okay? Alright.That's all uhh._. Today was so-so.And so was the past few days._." Nothing interesting ehh? I will be there when you need me,rest assure,but I may not be there all the time when you want me. Though we cant accept one another,but I will love you for who you are,no worries,but will you love me for who I am? Life aint a fairytale.Fairytales,my initial thoughts,were just packs of lies and they build up a fantasy in you.But in actual life,they teach you a lesson through lies,aint giving a lesson. The difference between school and life?In school,you are only taught a lesson and then given a test.In life,you are given a test that teaches you a lesson. I know I know.I know very well everyone needs a chance.But who has ever gave me a chance I needed?You ironic devil,never meant what you said.Dont you know you are hurting a poor innocent girl,who worries over the matter daily,suffering sleepless nights?I dont think she deserves to be ill-treated like that.To make the matter worst,you are her FRIEND ._. I dont know why,after I stopped 'love'ing,I begin to ask myself if that is true?I just hope its true and it will stay.But I just realised that you are drifting away.I dont want it all to end this way,but...I realised that I just cope anymore.I guess,you are just to much and to difficult to have..?It just aint going anywhere. I just need some time to adjust and absorb the fact that you are no longer with me,that you dont even care about me,that you dont wanna care,that that that...You just like _ _ _...It just hurts so much upon knowing;realising;feeling;getting the horrible truth.. *realityhittedmerealhard* One day,one perfect day,that perfectly nice and wonderful day TO YOU might just be the day I proclaim I'm officially died - Mentally and Physically:# I will just give up myself and you. Slit your wrist,jump off an overhead brigde,let lose of all the troubles~ Hmm I guess that should be all._." Byee...? I have alot to say,but when I face you,partically nothing came out...
Complication: 2oth July 2o1o;Tuesday Helloh Helloh Hello :D Hmm :/ I suck._. I failed my maths test,flung my chinese,must have flung my english and gonna fail tomorrow's geo test :# So many thing had happened and is happening D; The weather's changing constantly too D: Aww man._. Siann uhh?Why like school reopen hou got so many things._." Wai Po went to work.She just want to :# Sigh D; Hope you are here to share my feelings with.Do you really care..?About me..?About my everything..?I think,I just think,maybe,I shouldnt bother anymore._. Its too much for me to care,to worry,to be anxious over for when you yourself dont even care. You just dont get the whole idea do you?You just dont bother ehh?Sheesh D: Why do you always take me for a doll to toy around with?Why..?Why cant you just be someone who would actually CARE?What do you take me for..? Sigh sigh sigh D: I hate competing with YOU.It really sucks because I'm losing totally.In every single way.You just seemed to be forever one level above me.There's nothing I'm good at.And that's the truth - Ningy is stupid and she sucks to the core.I suck ttm. I think I think I think I'm jealous thats why I dislike you._. Hmm just maybe. That look on your face - In your face sucker That smirk on your face - hahaha The way your eyes move - Whatever,I cant be bothered with someone like you. Thats what I think._." I dont know.It always seem to be like that dont it?If possible,if everything were to rewind,I would do things the right way.Listen when I should,talk when I should,do whatever I should when I should... Things are NOT simple,but complicated._. When can things change to be much more simple._. Simple yet plain;Complicated yet beautiful Simple yet beautiful;Complicated yet enriching I guess its just like that?I rather we have an ugly game and I win than to have a beautiful game and I lose.And that shall be the end of this..?I cant seem to find any other reason to keep me going.Soon I might just break down... I dont want to be a burden to you.I just want to be there to help you.I rather keep everything to myself than to bother you now of days._. I guess I rather you having fun and enjoy than to be with me and listening to me whine. I believe that even if I'm not there one day,you would never notice it until mentioned.I believe that I dont mean anything to you.I believe..I believe..I believe that God knows what's best for me...I believe in the path God created for me. I believe in fate.I believe that you can live without me.Sometimes I hope things aint like that.I hope I'm your cup of tea,I hope I'm important,I hope I'm smart,I hope I'm..Much much better than who I am now. Sorry God,my creator,I dont mean to insult your creation.But seriously,why did you create a trash like me?What am I good at?What can I do?Who was I made to please?Why am I like that?How can things be much better?Oh God,please tell me.Now I really need your guidence._. Stupid little girl xoxo Ningy;I suck ttm D;
Complication: 15th July 2o1o;Thursday Okae chop chop(: Hmm I LOVE NG YUQIN(: LOL you rock ttm babe xD Ningy Jie ai ni worh!Thanks for being there^^ Both of you :D Ell-ohh-vee-ee trap; xoxo Ningy;Trapped in this trap^^
Complication: 14th July 2o1o;Wednesday(: The dilema is still there somehow.We are still restricted.I guess we all need time?*shrugs*Anyways,Helloh(: Kheng Quan Kor arhs,sleep earlier arhs!Remember to sms Ningy mei before you go sleep.If you late late then sent message you will get it! Jkjk luhs(: I where got that bad to you?And see?I so responsible horh?My kor headache I ask him go rest,but he still online._.And I hope I did manage to help you with yesterday's homework?I'm freaking tired today ya know? But its worth it xD Call-awes aii-mmm toe-ter-li ee-ni la-vee wee-eff euu^^ Sigh:D I'm falling so deep into this trap(; LOL HAHAHA.Okaes bored._. I really really ell-aii-kae-ee you(: Hmm lets end here bahs.BORED._." I.L.Y. You rock ttm!*woots* :D Its great to feel like that in this trap right? xoxo Ningy;the ell-ohh-vee-ee trap(:
Complication: 13th July 2o1o;Tuesday(: Helloh(: Beautiful day with all the dark clouds..GONE(: Lets start a fresh.On a brand new page,Okaes V.A.N. club?Hmm *nods* Thanks Kae-haych-ee-ann-gee Queue-euu-ehh-ann Kae-ohh-arr for being there when I really needed! Ann-aii-ann-gee-why ell-ohh-vee-ee why-ohh-euu^^ And Kheng Quan Kor arhs,I got say you like her mehs?You so ji dong for what?Like helloh kor,ann-ohh-tee emm-euu-see-haych pee-ee-ohh-pee-ell-ee kae-ann-ohh-doubleeuu tee-haych-aii-as see-ohh-dee-ee(: LOL HEHEHE Okaes.Seriously,thanks for being there(: You rock ttm xD Okaes okaes lets talk about a 'joke'.Well in a sense it is.Hmm so it all happened yesterday... [Not exact] Kheng Quan Kor asked me what was I doing and whether I could go online.I told him I was making hot the F&N food I cooked for my mum to try and I cant online.Jerry shuai ge would be online.Sadd.Then he replied me with a LOL.I not shuai uhh *emo* LOL horh?Then I was like you are luhs you are.Then he was like Lol okok dont force you LMAO seh xP Well You really are luhs^^ HAHAHA F&N yesterday was fine.The food was okae?LOL and ohh yeahh,WOW. I broke my running record yesterday.I did my retake and was like 13+++ minutes?Thanks Leon Kor,Kheng Quan Kor and Malcolm? For the encouragement during the run(: Love you all(x Hmm nothing more to say so shall end here(: Thanks for everything and everyday^^ I begin to fall deeper into this trap but..I seem to enjoy it(: xoxo Ningy;ell-ohh-vee-ee trap^^
Complication: 11th July 2o1o;Sunday(: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHI XUAN(: Ningy love you^^ Gawhh D; Why you join NPCC?Should've join SJAB.Then teach you how to NOT fall sick.Get well soon bro.Birthday still fall sick. *shakeshead* HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR VERJECCA(: Jia you worh Verjecca!Must learn to like school.Wahh year by year pass lo.It just seemed like it was last month when I gave you your last year birthday present._. Hmm 7th liaos,must guai guai ting hua horh! Hmm yesterday's anniversary was..Well kinda crappy?The speechs all sibei laggy.The V.I.P.s were all sibei late.We ended sibei late too(: So its sibei late.Late,late and late again^^ Reached home,ate dinner then after awhile went to play badminton. Tomorrow got P.E. seh._. And also got Home econ.SIANN~ Tomorrow 2.3oam FIFA World Cup finals!Tomorrow no school.All stay at home watching World Cup.SPAIN ROCKS TTM!LOL HAHAHA.Siann.Nothing to do.Just waiting for Vivienne to online. Vivienne is a prefect from CCHY & _ Is studying in class 1E'1o.She is also - Very good at netball and - Is excellent in studies. - Ell-ohh-vee-ee-dee by - Nobody and Somebody. - Never shall our friendship - End(: Angela is a beautiful girl who is loved by - Nobody and Anybody.This - Great & Wonderful NPCC member is - Excellent in her studies.She's - Loveable & freaking - Awesome!(: Ningy is - Impulsive,Impossible,Imperfect and a - Noboby. - Good for nothing(: LOL horh?HAHAHA siann siann siann D: Sigh D; I guess thats the end ehh?It aint gonna work in any way?Its just fated to be liddat?Is it really the end?I hope it isnt.We've been through so much and came so far...I dont wanna end it this way.I wanna only remember the best of our friendship... I cant seem to be sure if you are really true.I dont know if I can trust you.Both of you...The two people who happens to know most of everything?Maybe next time I shall just keep things to myself?I dont think saying is the best anymore. But seriously,I need someone to confide to..Anyone.It doesnt matter.As long as you will be there for me...Seriously,where were you when I needed you?Maybe I dont need you that badly..But still,I wish you would be there to stop my tears. Siann luhs.It just aint working out right.But I believe it would be right one day.And that one day is just around the corner!Jiayou jiayou zai jiayou(: Please God,makethings work for once xD HAHAHA but seriously,PLEASE MAKE IT WORK :# Believe that the world goes round(: xoxo Ningy;Believe in what you believe xP
Complication: 1oth July 2o1o;Saturday Helloh(: Later going back school for anniversary xD WOW I wonder this time round Paul would be right or Mani._. I certainly hope Spain would win the world cup^^ HAHAHA Seriously,CCA wasnt great as I couldnt do footdrill and PT for the second week-_-" STUPID WEATHER I HATE YOU.LOL Melissa,Yu Si,Han Zheng,Sharina,Xin Yu rocks ttm :D Adam and Jian Fa rocks ttm to luhs^^ Hmm we better study hard for BFA test worh~ Then can go NDP to help out!Yippee!*studystudystudy* LMAO.Mel,you owe me Starbucks coffee because I was being unreasonable(x HAHAHA anyways,thanks!Guess what guys? I was so damm freaking blur yesterday!My dad went to school to fetch me,I was too busy talking to Adam,Jian Fa and Melissa to notice him.He keep horning then Adam was like walao.Shuddup luhs!LOL then my dad called and I was wondering why. Then I was oh crap!That's my dad!Then I chiong go back(: Sorry for running away half way when I was talking to you,Jian Fa.Paiseh paiseh :# HEHEHE so blur horh?Then my dad say I busying talking to guys to even notice him.ROFL~ Siann!I wann sleep seh._. Zzz LOL.My blog is dead for so long.FIFA world cup rocks ttm xP *random* LMAO.So...Whose voting for Spain?I AM! LOL almost whole of SJAB is voting for Spain!!Monday is the last day of world cup.Everyone watching ehh?HAHAHA I dunno why,but it really seems like the whole history will repeat.Just this time round,things would be really different - I'll have to face this all alone.No one's gonna be there for me.I would be leave there all alone. Why am I always there for people when they needed but when I needed them,they werent there.Why am I always left alone in the dark?Why isnt there a time I can have true real friends?Thanks to those who really cares and is there to make my day so much better :] Finding out the truth is so much better then talking behind other's back right?At least you get the answer,at least you know why.There will always be a reason why.Dont just say but not do.Never judge things by its looks._. Dont gimme attitude because I give you.You deserve it in many ways.You wann things your way,I give in.But you take it for granted then no.There will no longer be a NEXT time.Its gonna just end here.I really wanna tell you that you're sucha bitch sometimes.But I dont tell you it doesnt mean you aint==" Please go and reflect if our friendship can go on...You wont talk about it because you dont wanna hear the hurtful words...But why must I face the reality myself?Its not my problem only..You are the only one getting both of the better ends while we are suffering here. Seriously,please..Go and reflect.Tyvm.Well gotta go now!Byee! Where are you when I needed you? xoxo Ningy;Sigh
Complication: 6th July 2o1o;Tuesday(: Helloh peepos!Ningy is here to post again(: Awesome ehh?Anyways,I doubt I can use com tomorrow.So... HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO - MING HUI JIE(: HAHAHA LOL seh.Ohh yeahh Angel,Nahh(: Not your fault anyways,I'm kinda catching the cold xD Rain so hard I still on fan until tua tua^^ LOL shiok for once and suffer for so long._. So lets talk about yesterday(: Ohh oops :#HAPPY BELATED YOUTH DAY(x Went to AMK hub yesterday.Intially with Vivienne and Kheng Quan Kor.Then Angel came(: And it made up the whole V.A.N. club^^ LMAO then we went to Northpoint.Go popular walk walk then headed for Starbucks xP Then Kheng Quan Kor saw his friends and then after I brought my drink sat down not long..I heard something like this: 'Eh Kheng Quan,your girlfriends arh?' ._. That guy siot not? Then my great Melissa came to look for me just to show me the $40++ first-aid manual.Love you babe(: You more chio^^ Then went to Causeway and blablabla. Today was so-so.But tomorrow got Art sure better.Art rock ttm(: So do the V.A.N. club^^ But seriously,someone else rocks ttm even though that someone else sucks ttm.Vivienne,Ningy is hopeless._. LOL still thinking about someone else-_- Hey seriously,how can I forget it when I see someone else everyday?Sad uhh?LOL someone else is horrible.Make me wait and wait and wait for nothing==" You suck ttm,also you make me smile sometimes.Mostly I feel sad luh.Ell-ohh-vee-ee isnt meant to be hurtful..Is it? PLEASE TELL ME SOMEONE ELSE._. I dont know why but,I wish you good luck(: Okaes busy liaos.Ming Hui Jie will know why tomorrow xD I love anybody,somebody,Melissa,Ming Hui Jie,Someone else and etc etc... V.A.N. club rocks ttm(x xoxo Ningy;I'm really hurt and tired of this whole ell-ohh-vee-ee business._.
Complication: 3rd July 2o1o;Saturday(: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ZHING(:Jie ai ni worh!And helloh guys(x Its the start of another beautiful day^^ LOL thanks to those who made my day till now(: Ningy sure love you guys xD Siann seh.Nothing to talk about. Dont ask me why...But I am sure I'm never negative..Is just that I dont have the confidence in myself.Sad uhh?LOL but I know that in everyday's life,I am cheerful enough.When you are upset,tell me and I'll prove to you that I can positive(: I can slay my own dragon,I can dream my own dreams...[Extracted from Cheetah Girls;Cinderella]I will be independent!Jiayou(: BORED D: I need to runaway from the reality sometimes seh.Maybe the beach will do. Just sit there and staring into space and wishing god would be better.Just too much things happening right?Face it girl.No matter what,I must be happy and live on(; Will the answers to my questions really be out? xoxo Ningy;Confused
Complication: 1st July 2o1o;Thursday(: Helloh xD Today went to buy Ming Hui Jie's present(: HEHEHE.Asked Kheng Quan Kor to come all the way back to Northpoint just for it!WOOTS.Thanks a lot Kheng Quan Kor. You happy,I happy,we all happy. You smile,I smile,we all smile. You sad,I sad,we all sad. You cry,I cry,we all cry. You sing,I sing,we all sing. You shout,I shout,we all shout. You dance,I dance we all dance. You move,I move,we all move. You get scolded,I get scolded,we all get scolded. You get punished,I get punished,we all get punished. You jump,I jump,we all jump. You die,I die,we all die. Most importantly, We have one another. PERFECT~ HAHAHA.Shall end here?Not much to say,except that Melissa Then Wan Ting... YOU OWE ME 4990 PUMPING.Gay style(x Where were you when I most needed you?You were gone at that time,without waiting.I know the wait is long.But at least you lemme know you did waited or so.You dont really care what I'm thinking about and how I'm feeling...So... WHERE'S THE PART ON ATTRACTING ATTENTION,V.A.N. club?LOL ask kaequeue and he wont tell?I dont believe.Was it a good start to consider or a bad start?Was I right about everyone needing a chance to prove themselves? Anybody,tell kaequeue I WAS TALKING ABOUT HIM(: [I love anybody and somebody xP You two rock ttm]Err thanks a million Yuqin.For being there when I needed and teaching me stuff.Thanks for the smiles and laughter you gave though I didnt appreciate them last time. I know I was there when you needed and taught you stuff too.But you taught me way more and was there the entire time.If I could runaway to another world and could only bring one other friend,that would be you. You are special^^ Eeks!I nose bleed just now...Hmm YAYY!Nobody won the challenge today(: Awesome.But I didnt know somebody said FAQ once lehs.anybody.You said twice worh,anybody(: LOL hahaha. And Mel,just add salt and water to the bottle and leave over night.Then tomorrow wont stink(; Jiayou :D HAHAHA.Siann got to do homework lo. If our memories were like a puzzle,would it be full of colours or dull?I should have really really appreciated the times we had together.I cant believe that I'm looking back now,thinking how silly I was to let go of friends like you guys...For the school I wanted... The memories we shared walking home,eating mac,sitting at the playground,prank calling guys,calling one another,chasing after each other,laughing at our own jokes,gossiping,sharing our daily life in class,writing profiles,etc...They were all like a perfect dream.And I've just woken up and fell back to another. When will I be able to rewind all this beauitful memories with you guys?There's no way to amend the past.There's only a way to looking forward to the future;SMILE AND LOOK AROUND.YOU ARE NEVER GONNA BE ALONE. All we need is one another. |
That Complicated Girl♥ NING There's nothing wrong with my name. Born on 3rd September 1997;Virgo. Currently Perfectly Twelve. An Anthonian and a CCHYian DEAD.STUPID.AINT PRETTY. STRESSED.CHEATED. BETRAYED.HURT.TROUBLED. CRAZY.GIVEN UP.FAILURE. RANDOM. The PROBLEMATIC Dare Angel. Not a tame cat, but a wild tigeress. RAWR(; Being bad and evil like a devil^^ I'm not a nice and sweet girl. Accept the fact that I'm NAUGHTY not Cocksure about being unsure we undefine,we uninstall,we tear down walls lose like artists who rise and fall win like losers knowing the score seeing the haws yet WANTING IT ALL our finishing line drawn in childish scrawl Living in this world♥
Complication;Simplify Black;White Yes;No Right;Wrong Smile;Frown Love;Hate Me;You Life is Never Fair, Never Perfect. But all is not lost yet. No matter what, Live your life to your fullest. If memories can be erased, I would erase a whole lot of it. If life was a subject, I would have failed miserably. If love was everything, I would have lost everything. If friends were laughter, I wonder how my life would be. If I could slit my wrist and jump down the brigde, I think my life wouldnt be that painful after all. If I can fly like a kite, able to soar above the skies, my troubles would be all over. If dying can solve the problem, it wont harm to die. If trying hard can cause so much to happen, I wont try. If I can end my troubles, my life would be way better. I want to give up sometimes. What kept me going until now? Looks really can be devicing - The smiles in a picture. Words can mean alot - The letters that I pick. Love can be really fragile - My heart is breaking,into many million pieces. Life can be really complicated - All this mess. Life can be really simple - I love you(: You happy,I happy,we all happy. You smile,I smile,we all smile. You sad,I sad,we all sad. You cry,I cry,we all cry. You die,I die,we all die. Most importantly, I got you,you got me. Perfect(: Life aint gonna get any better. Its already at its best(; And its horrible. But hey, look on the brighter side of horrible life [: Heal the Heart(*: Let it out♥ Complications♥ CCHYians(: Jadelyn 'Jie'♥ Vivienne Mei♥ Ying Xuan♥ Fiona♥ Claire♥ Wei Xiang♥ Nichole♥ Melissa Mei♥ Jess♥ Angela Jie♥ Anthonians(: Yu Qin Mei♥ Yoon Shan Mei♥ Claudia Jie♥ Wen Hui Jie♥ Samatha Jie♥ Kai Sin Jie♥ Genice Jie♥ Terence Kor♥ TeriAnne Jie♥ Odessa Mei♥ Javier Lee Kor♥ Bowen Kor♥ Jie Yi Jie♥ Dephne Jie♥ Thiruvenika♥ Friends(: Elain♥ Class/School Blogs(: 1E'1o♥ SJAB♥ My beloved Gans[Total:45]♥
Forever Loving and Remembering them♥ 27th January 1997 - Giggs Kor and Dephne Jie 28th January 1997 - Terence Kor and Merlyn Jie 6th February 1997 - Eugene Kor 21st February 1997 - Claudia Jie 25th February 1997 - Denise Jie 5th March 1997 - Dexuan Kor 6th March 1997 - Jie Yi Jie and Diyana Jie 18th March 1997 - Yuan Sheng Kor 26th March 1997 - Angela Jie 27th March 1997 - Kheng Quan Kor 31st March 1997 - Crystal Jie 1st April 1997 - Genice Jie 3rd April 1997 - Zhen Yi kor 7th April 1997 - Yap Woon Jie 16th April 1997 - Leon Kor 7th May 1996/1998 - Wei Xiang Kor and Yoon Shan Mei 23rd May 1997 - Samantha Jie 31st May 1997 - Hao Yi Kor 1st June 1996 - Jun Jie Kor 19th June 1997 - Bowen Kor 23rd June 1997 - Teri Anne Jie 3oth June 1997 - Kai Sin Jie 7th July 1996 - Ming Hui Jie 29th July 1997 - Wen Hui Jie 5th September 1997 - Nikki Mei 8th September 1997 - Camelia Mei 27th September 1997 - Joreen Mei 12th October 1997 - Chan Qing Mei 2oth October 1997 - Chloe Mei 27th October 1997 - Joshua Di 28th October 1997 - Estella Mei 29th October 1997 - Jadelyn 'Jie' 4th November 1997 - Valerie Mei 21st November 1997 - Evonne Mei 22nd November 1997 - Melissa Mei 23rd November 1997 - Nita Mei 28th November 1997 - Jing Yi Mei 6th December 1997 - Odessa Mei 9th December 1997 - Raeann Mei 23rd December 1997 - Vivienne Mei 28th December 1997 - Yu Qin Mei Memories♥ |
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